so a few weeks ago, we met with Father Chris in preparation for our upcoming wedding, and he told us that from now on and forever, we are to work on our friendship. i've been thinking about ways to do that. after all, we did start out as friends - not best friends, but friends all the same. i've recently been reading our old emails (i guess those count as love letters, these days) that we sent to each other in the early days of our relationship. everything seemed magical, innocent, and undoubtedly special, as it still is. as we have been dating for almost four years now, it goes without saying that our relationship has changed - not in a bad way; we have matured with each other, celebrated joys, and loved each other through painful times. so that leaves the question: how do we work on our friendship?
not too long ago, i was recommended to read the NieNie Dialogues, a blog written by a woman named stephanie (nie) who celebrated the joys of marriage and motherhood. unfortunately, nie and her husband christian were involved in a plane crash that left both with scars visible and invisible. while stephanie's injuries were grave, she has kept up her blog and now writes about her daily journey back to the life she used to know.
it took me a few days to read her blog archives from beginning to end, but reading the story of her life and love has left me inspired to be a better person; to love better. specifically, love you better.
i started this blog a few months ago with the hope of chronicling our journey to becoming husband and wife, but i'm hoping i can perhaps show you a piece of my heart that you've not seen. writing has gotten away from me as teaching, directing, and other ways of living have gotten in the way.
i'm hoping that by showing you a different side of me, and by maybe writing about, well everything, perhaps we can become better friends. i used to get so mad at you when you would call me "friend" - i used to say i didn't want to be your friend; i wanted to be more than that to you. now i see that in order to become more, friends is a wonderful place to start - and keep coming back to.
thank you, nie, for showing me a better way to love.
thank you, rob, for loving me better than anyone ever has.
i'll always try to do the same for you...my friend. <3
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